before all this

i remember when i begged and begged my dad
for an ipad
cuz the other kids had one and i didn't
and i wanted all the games they played
all the information i could access
all the things i could learn
i  remember a time before all that
when blackberries were the cellphone
and i could play snakes on my mom's nokia
and all my music was stuffed on a little ipod nano
and i sang along to the cheetah girls and the spice girls
annoying my brother during long car rides
i remember when i read when i was bored
when i could dive deep into someone else's story
to get away
now i swim deeper
into holes on google
videos lead to videos
and i've watched for hours on end
and i don't get anything done
before all this
i felt better